Tuesday, 31 December 2013
fatchance.co.nz is the link if you would like to have a week peek, $40 bucks was worth a shot to me and its online so I can do it whenever and where-ever. Its a different approach than I am used to but still calorie counting. I am going to eat 1660 though as that is what I am used to and what I have decided to stick with for now but I will definitely work through the head stuff. I need this weight off a bit faster than this program allows for I'll get it off then go to the 2100 ish they recommend and see if I can maintain nicely there ... we will see I am sure.
Today it is new years eve.... we are having a few friends around and we will have a few nibbles. they are all having "Wendys"for dinner and I may indulge I may not. I am not a huge burger fan so it doesn't bother me to much. I will however have cider or three or a wine and some chips and dip to ring in the new year.
This year has seen us sign up to build our home exactly a year ago today. Take out a mortgage, spend months waiting for the title to our land, spend months waiting to the building company to get started. I turned 30, the boy asked me to marry him. I had my first stay in hospital since I was born and an operation to remove my gall bladder. I then had a fair few complications from that to deal with as well. I secured a permanent job at school. I made choices and decisions to run a half marathon and ride 200 kms over 2 days in 2014. I have made some amazing friends, been inspired but some even more amazing people who are now my friends. There has been HUGE ups and downs in the process. But in the end we have come out on top and life is actually really wonderful. I may not be at my goal weight, I may not be as fit as I want to be. BUT I am happy and healthy and have a loving, caring partner who I adore and have no idea what life would be like without him. Even though this year has had its very hard and rough patches, and i may have a few scares ( hidden but still there) I have stuck at thing and worked bloody hard.
I love my life and the people in it and I am looking forward to smashing 2014 out of the park. AND .... there is about 50 odd days till my house is finished ( maybe possibly even less.... then I can MOVE IN!!)
Sunday, 29 December 2013
I honestly can not wait until I can rid my environment of temptation and be able to avoid shit food etc, as at the moment with all the christmas extra crap on top of all the normal junk I am really not doing to well. I just find it to hard and cave in, part of that is self control I am fully aware but it is so much easier to have self control when its not their to tempt you etc.
I have been consistent with my runs this and I am loving that 5 kms is still hard but I can mentally push to get myself to the end of that. I am going to add 1 min to my runs each time and slowly increase the distance/time as this half marathon is about time on my feet.
I still worry about how the hell I am going to complete it, but thats what the training is for. I can train I have done it all before. I just want to do it lighter.
I need to be more consistent with my strength training as this week it has been a no go, haven't even don't it once. SO tomorrow I will do it and wednesday and friday. I have changed my runs to match the 12 week program and so I can get used to it etc and used to running 2 days back to back, which I had been doing anyway.
I need to be more consistent with my food and I am hoping to verge back under the 100 kg mark by new years eve. I need to be a bit lighter as I think being this heavy has a large impact on my running etc, I am pretty sure lugging 85-90 kgs would be a shite load easier than lugging a 100 kgs.
On the plus side my reflux has gone again, so I must be sorting my eating out to some degree, I need to eat veges and fruits and cut the high sugar out, I really struggle with sugar, I LOVE lollies I honestly do.
In other news, might go look at a dining room table today and see if the one I like at early settler has matching coffee tables and we need to find the "red" colour we want for our splash back as I need to get some quotes for that and get it sorted to go in as soon as the kitchen is in the house.
We are currently awaiting the house to be gibbed stopped and then once that is done the kitchen can go in and they can pain the inside. But as everyone stops for close to three weeks the kitchen install is not booked until the 20th of January. Hopefully my front door arrives soon as well as the temp on is GROSE !
Onwards. Have a nice day all.
Thursday, 26 December 2013
So my weight is up over the 100 kg mark, which makes running a little hard at times BUT I am now able to run just under 5 kms solid and I am loving it. So I will work on getting to the 5 km mark and then will keep the intensity until my 12 week half marathon training kicks in. I DO need to become more regular with my strength stuff as I have been a little lazy about it so it needs to become a priority and I need to get strong. I am hoping with the exercise and healthy balance eating I will lose some weight as a side product of everything as I need to get the kgs off I am uncomfortable and I hate being this big. ( living arrangements will change in the next 10 weeks so YAY for being able to "de-junk" my environment.)
I am looking forward to getting into 4 runs a week that increase in time. I know I need to be consistent every single time!! No letting a run go and no just not doing things, its got to be done to make me the best me I can be to complete this event.
# consistent 4 runs a week
# 3 strength sessions a week
# 3x1 min prone every day !
# stretch my legs and back ( increase the length in my hip flexers)
# reduce sugar and fat content of foods
# eat well balanced meals
# no binging
# 2 -3 litres a day
# work on positive self talk
# increase mental strength to not give up when running
# work through things and not eat my emotions ( HUGE task)
I can do this.. this week until new years is about re-setting the healthy balanced approach to food and continuing to get my routine stabilised and in place. I have just over 3 weeks until its only 12 weeks until this event ( guess I had better enter it as well).
Tuesday, 10 December 2013
SOO I cried and cried and cried. The Fiance just cuddled me and made me feel better. He is a sweetie as he gets that things are bloody hard for me at times and I just can't do it anymore. The house has been pushed back to the 19th of February, thats completion then we need to obtain code of compliance. So that means there is a chance it maybe March... yes I just write March, before we move into the house. That is is if they don't make up the time and things in the new year.
Food was dreadful on Sunday as well. I just ate tried to squash the feelings with food. By the good grace of things, I had helped a friend move in the morning so I has moved a fair bit by the time this eating began.
I weighed in today.
Highest weight 101
Last weeks weight 99.4
Todays weight 98.6
Loss 800 grams.. Ill take that and move one.
I need to just keep focused.
I have also stopped having protein shakes for breakfast and have gone back to burcher musli.
I think all the protein may have been a bit much and I wonder if it is why I have these huge waves of being SO tired.
Friday, 6 December 2013
I am thinking the not stressing is helping with the weight loss. As the only huge stressor I now have is the house and the waiting for it to be finished, which is a huge head spanner as I really desperately need my own home and space. But I can hang in there for another 10 odd weeks. 6 weeks of that is holidays and 2 weeks left of work. So thats 8 weeks of time to go by. and then the school term starts, so it should hopefully be ready by the end of week 2 of the term. But in reality it may possibly be week 3 or even 4. But with the beginning of school is a really busy time so hopefully it will fly past.
Weight wise.. I am loving watching the scales creep downwards. I am wanting to get as close to the 95 mark as I can by xmas. So getting there slowly.
I have a few hurdles this weekend, we have dinner at friends tonight and BBQ on saturday night as well as the general not over eating at cricket, which I struggle with at times. But I can take carrots and things to get me through. Carrots and strawberries and a salad for lunch. I know if I run its not as hard but its still a bit of a mission for me. Then Sunday morning we are helping a friend move. In there I need to run and do a strength session as well. I feel stronger and thats awesome I can also feel my muscles in my lower stomach and hip areas. Apparently eventually I will be able to feel the difference in my body when I run. Looking forward to smashing a 5 km solid run as soon as I am allowed to do it.
Thursday, 5 December 2013
I have exercised for 7 days in a row, stoked about that !
I am now running 4 times a week and strength training three times a week. My physio is pleased with the progress my leg is making and I am working back up to running for a 30 mins solid. Currently doing interval training.
I am feeling smaller and leaner weird how the brain kind gets a hold of things and runs with it.
Not long till work stops for me, I am honestly looking forward to it, having a break and getting my head around what next year brings and the things I need to do..
Monday, 25 November 2013
Saturday I ran in the heat eeekk yuck, and then I tidied and sorted some things. One wants to pack but well there isn't really anything to pack as yet. I am going to try and get the other half to sort his clothes out and de-clutter a bit. Then we can start to pack, I think. 8 - 10 weeks and the house should be finished.
Saturday night was the work do, man it was fabulous, I drank far to much and danced for hours, my leg seemed to cope with that. I also then ate mcdonalds on the way home as I didn't eat enough dinner, no where near enough for the amount I drunk. Think that is possibly the most I have drunk in about 2 years. I had a blast really was fabulous.
Sunday saw a visit to the house to check out the wiring and some of the other bits and bobs, we are getting there slowly, the electricians really like our house and the fact people have written comments and things all over the framing, kind of makes it ours and well is a bit of fun.
The the other half and I went for a bike ride, first ride on the road in cleats for us and well it was fabulous, my friend is teaching us to ride safely and how to make the most of our bikes etc. She is amazing and we are lucky she is willing to give up her time to teach us. We cycled 10kms in 40 mins ( for her thats like a nice we jaunt) for us, it hurt haha.
I am wanting to increase my road cycling to 3 times a week and 4 runs. Which I know seems like a lot but I need to get fit and I enjoy both running and cycling.
I am also contemplating doing lake Taupo challenge next year. Its a HUGE thing 160 kms in one day. But I am a true believer you can do what you put your mind to.
My food yesterday was a bit well crap too.
Start fresh today and work hard this week and I am hoping to be in the 98's by next monday.
I was 101.. today but that is because I am retaining fluid from the booze!
Have a good day all.
Friday, 22 November 2013
My running is going ok. I really want to just run, but that is not going to help my leg get better. But today I can run 2 mins and walk 1 min intervals for 20 mins. So I will after work go for a run around the league field ( BORING AS HELL BTW)
I brought new jeans last night, size 14 and 2 new tops from glassons size 16. I know some people wouldnt mind being this is, but to me, its to big, the tummy has to go.
OHH the physio's wee prone hold thing I do is a killer everytime but I do it, as the idea of toning up my tummy and side under neath appeals for when we can see the underneath. I dont want to be super skinny, but I do want my roles gone from me tummy.
Work do this weekend and I will enjoy myself. I am going to allow myself not to feel restricted and just enjoy myself, I find I don't binge eat then. I then have work break up last day of term and then xmas and new year to get through. So if I can be healthy and good with my eating, run and bike it should all balance out and the scale should keep dropping.
Wednesday, 20 November 2013
He is happy with my progress with the prone holds now I have to do 1 min front and 1 min on each side. YUP 3 mins of prone holds. I need to get the middle of me strong to keep myself well and organised.
I have also started to fund raise for the ride to conquer cancer, if you would like to help me fundraise follow the link below.
That is my personal page, I am riding as part of a team so can not wait. Need to get myself on my bike. But that decemebers goal as I am currently working on re-hab my leg.
Tuesday, 19 November 2013
I am still unsure about my shoes I have 60 days to decided if I like them or not so time will tell. My Physio is a hard case he txt me last night and was like, so how are the shoes and how was the run. I was like who is a nutter who thinks running on grass is pleasant. His response "Running is not easy, that is why I do not do it :P"
He really is lovely. he challenged me to do a prone hold for a minute a day to strengthen my core ( well what is ment to be my core as I dont have any ab muscles haha) and I managed a full minute on my toes last night, rather stoked as that means I am getting stronger. I will keep it up and possibly ( once we are in the house and I have some room to move, look at doing a bit more strength training with my swiss ball and press up etc etc to get the rest of me toned as well.
I did not say about my weigh in but I can confirm I STS, from last week bloody surprised I did not gain actually.
This week I have my work do, so there will be still booze water retention on monday so not too worried what the scales say so 2 Decemeber I want a decent loss, 1-2 kg would make me a happy camper. So I will aim for that and getting my leg better so I can clock up some more miles under my feet..
I also need to get on my bike and get some km's under my bum as well.
On house front still awaiting to know if and when the dam thing will be finished.
Monday, 18 November 2013
I think possibly is a combination of self sabotage and nasty talk and everything falling into place with my life. I wonder if its a settling thing. There really isn't anything for me to worry about. Apart from the house. I really do need to let the house stuff go and just move forward from there.
I have decided to participate in the ride to conquer cancer ride in 2014, signed up and everything. Its a 200km bike ride over two days. I am not bike fit and this may kill me. BUT it gives em something to work towards and it gives me another reason to lose this weight and focus on something else, along with the half marathon I will be doing in April.
I brought new shoes yesterday and I am looking forward to giving them a wee trial tonight, physio instructed running, 1 min walk, 1 min run on grass for only 20 mins. My exercise is being reduced I am allowed to bike though so I am thinking I may just get on my bike.
This weekend is my work do, on Saturday that is the last thing before xmas, so after saturday is clean eating and exercising. I need to get fit. I am thinking I might starting riding 3 times a week in the holidays as well as running 3-4 times a week, get my kms up in both areas and then hopefully that will help with the weight and filling in my days in the holidays. I also have a hole lot of things to get my head around in regard to my new year level for next year and what the outcomes are for the children, I am excited and can not wait to get there.
I think possibly I am eating as a cycle of eat crap beat myself up and then eat more crap and make myself feel even worse.
TODAY it stops. I need to track everything and focus on sticking to my calories and not over eating.
I will run today aswell.
WATER WATER WATER!
Saturday, 16 November 2013
Thursday, 14 November 2013
It felt heaps better yesterday so I went for a run.... run a bit ouch tight, very tight thighs and calf on my right leg, stop running walk a bit. Start running again, the process repeated itself quiet a bit as I ran through my 6km run. Get home feel fine, legs a bit tight. The fiance rubbed my right leg down with anti flame and things are ok, tight but ok. Get up today and get to work walk about a bit and BOOM OUCH! My knee is hurting ... txt a friend at works hubby he is a physio, but can't get an appointment until tomorrow.. how annoying ! So no running for me until this is sorted as it hurts BADLY and I am limping as I don't want to put my body weight on it.
I think finally my protein bars have arrived and hopefully my powder will by tomorrow aswell or I am going to run out.
Dinner I think I may have Ptita pit, rather liking that at the moment for a quick easy meal.
I have xmas presents to finish buying and wrapping to start tonight as well. I will be home alone for the first time in a very long time. ( I live with my in laws and sister in law as well!)
3 months today until the house "should" be done !!! roll on that time going buy I miss my stuff and space and being able to do whatever etc as well.
Wednesday, 13 November 2013
I GOT THE PERMANENT JOB !!! Stoked relieved and happy I can finally settle into my life here and get on with being the best teacher I can be ( and possibly plan a baby in there now too.)
I need to get my head back in the game and get my eating awesome like it was.
I have ordered protein bars and some more protein powder and I am thinking of cutting all carbs and sugar out apart from natural stuff. Will see how I go.
Weigh in from monday
CW 100.9 kgs
GAIN of 2.2 kgs
A lot of that was fluid I think.. but we will see on monday!!!!!
Friday, 8 November 2013
I am going away for the weekend, so I will resort my shit on Monday.
Monday will be a success because I will sort and plan my food once back from christchurch on Sunday night. I will run 6 kms on monday and then 5.5km on wednesday and then 5km friday and 6kms on Saturday.
I am an emotional eater and all the stress from the job situation and the fire works, I am hellishly scared of them has sent me into a not sleeping, eating junk cycle because I am so tired and I just can not say no to myself. I have decided its ok, its been a week of crap but thats ok, it didn't take me a week to improve my fitness and sort my healthy eating it wont take a week to ruin it either.
The scales will not be nice on monday ohh well they are scales. I can run 6 kms again that in itself is pretty bloody amazing.
I got A job at school I am not sure if its permanent yet or not !!
OHH next saturday is my Zoo experience with the red panada can not wait !!!!
Tuesday, 5 November 2013
We went to the house last night to mark in where we wanted extra nogs for the tv's to be put on and where we wanted the man hole ( Fiance is 6 foot 6) the gap needs to be big enough for him to get through. ( Not me him !)
I am stoked that the weight is moving and it is slowly going down.. it makes me feel happy but I am also aware that the muscles etc are doing things to. happy chappy
Today, some more waiting about job and report writing !!
Rest day which I am rather very much looking forward to!
Monday, 4 November 2013
Today 98.7 kg
Loss 1 kg
I did it I ran 6 km... it wasn't the nicest of runs and I had to keep pushing myself. BUT that for me is the normal at the moment, you want the results you have to push.
No news on the job front, still waiting, maybe today ? Keep waiting ....
Sunday, 3 November 2013
Friday, 1 November 2013
Tuesday, 29 October 2013
I ate a little bit more than I should have at dinner and then all I wanted was ice cream, avoided the ice cream but not so much 2 small muffins (homemade) and 2 scotch fingers and a kit kat. Ohh well it's done now and there is not much I can do about.
I weighed in today
Last weeks weigh 100.4 kgs
Todays weight 99.7
Loss 700 grams
But still 200 grams up on my start weight.
I do not get why the weight is holding on but I can not let it get to me. Goal is to stay off the scales until Monday. I will remeasure myself in a month as well and try my dress on. Lots of measures are way better than one. I am hoping ym jeans start to get lose soon, they are still fitting me well, I would love to get back into my size 12 jeans and clothes, I feel a lot better about myself when my tummy isn't this big.
Monday, 28 October 2013
Sunday, 27 October 2013
Friday, 25 October 2013
Thursday, 24 October 2013
Because ..... I WANT to run this half marathon and eating myself stupid wont help me get there. It is possibly the only logical thought process that I have had at times over the past week.
On another note, sleeping is soo important, last night I burst into tears about being tired and how tired I felt, then the fiance put me to bed. I was asleep by 9:30 pm and only woke up a few times. I feel a SH*T load better today and not as shattered. The other things I have realised is, I NEED to sleep its is actually as important as eating properly. So I am going to start making an effort to get myself into bed and ready before 9pm.
My run yesterday was awesome, yet again I feel I am running more and more, and I shaved a min off the time from Monday, same distance, so I am stoked. I want to run 6 - 7 min kms so I am hopefully on my way to do doing that.
Today is a rest day for me, I am not as sore today as I was on Tuesday so the body is getting used to all this. Hopefully that means it will start to move the weight, which I think is the reason why I have a bit of a tender knee, because I am too heavy ! Off dam weight to make this running stuff easier for me !!
Today we are going to the mall for dinner, I will stick to my calories there is no need not to.
I also have to decide what I am going to have as my treat this week, or if I am going to have a treat at all.
Wednesday, 23 October 2013
BUT the question for today is ...
Do I run as far as I can tonight for as long as I can 5 km max type thing. OR do I just move to week four of the C25km training and do jog 3 mins walk 90 secs, jog 5 mins walk 2.5 mins, jog 3 mins walk 90 secs the jog for 5 mins ....
Hmm I am a bit unsure what to do. Part of me feels like really going at it and anther parts knows the training is good for me and might help with my speed etc.
I am stoked to be nearly at the 4 weeks of this training as that is where a normally fall off or get sick. I am being soo careful not to get unwell and to take my vitamins and to eat good fats and things. I am hoping all of these things will add up and stay well while I train for this mammoth event.
I love running I love the freedom it seems to give me and the stress relief I seem to attain from it. Finally I feel back to myself and that I am settling into my life again as me. The only thing that will improve that is more running and my house being complete and "us" being able to live together, in our own space doing our own thing.
I have decided to just do the c25km week 4 training and keep at it.. as it will help me get faster etc and possibly not kill me etc in the process. Its a bit wet and windy today so I might have to run faster to stay warm etc hahaha I am joking I run as fast as I run.
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
My running is really coming along it is a mental battle but I am getting there with it. I ran a solid km yesterday as well as the c25km training of 3 mins x 4 blocks and then on and off over the last 1 km feeling proud of how far I have come in the past two weeks and where I am going to.
Rest day today which I need to do my strength training because that is a bit lagging behind and I might stretch out my legs.
LOVING Sunsweet dried mango packets = 70 calories and because they are in packets I dont eat the whole bag of them. WIN makes control easier for this girl if they are sealed away. They are my sweet treat at lunch and I am loving them.
Day is going well started on water bottle number three just now, so hoping to get to 4 bottles a day = 3 liters.
Monday, 21 October 2013
Current weight 100.4
Gain of 900 grams
My run tonight was great but I think I am getting fitter as I am not burning as many calories as I was last week even though I am covering the same distance and running more and more of the 5kms.
I feel really good and its awesome.
Pretty annoyed at the building company, last week I emailed them to tell them they had placed someone else's photos on our on line log in thing.. and today I go in and there are even more of this other peoples house. The fiance is fumming I am just like what more did you expect !!!
Honestly would recommend my builder any day of the week, he is a subbi to the building company but I would not build with Stonewood ever again!!
Ugh I am starting to get very tired at about 7pm each night I seem to have this issue when I start exercising with this and I have to manage it well or I am going to crash and burn yet again. I will take my iron pills tomorrow and my multi vitamins. Must look after myself.
Tomorrows food is all made and ready to go BUT I need to track it all.
Sunday, 20 October 2013
I had an ok bike ride, the boy got sore burning legs. we havent been riding much in the past wee while and well he doesnt really exercise other than a bit of cricket practice so we rode 6km in 25 mins which was ok 177 calories burned.
This I posted on my facebook page earlier .... "Managing everything and getting myself back into running and being healthy has been interesting journey. Since 2008 I have worked on improving my life. I today, as I was on the 28th of January 2008 am committed to getting myself healthy. This week I have run 3 times eaten 1550 calories daily + my exercise burnt calorie. Tomorrows results will be interesting as so far this week I have gained 200 grams. Tomorrow brings week two of getting fit and healthy. I have 3 runs planned and a bike ride or two. I have committed to running even in the rain. ...."
I really do feel like this a another learning journey for me, my life has changed SO much In the past 2 years and well things are 100% different. So my weight loss journey has not been easy the past two years but now I feel is the time to get it all sorted and done and achieve one of my biggest goals. For some reason running 21.1 km really floats my boat and I can not wait to achieve it.
Tomorrow I have a run planned and have planned out all my food apart from dinner. Looking forward to getting my running up a bit more .. can not wait till a 5km is my small run.
Friday, 18 October 2013
I honestly think my weight is possibly just as stubborn as me !! It just won't move ! It went up on Tuesday and seems to be staying there. Ohh well I know I am doing the right thing. I possibly need more sleep though.
Planning doing c25km training tonight but we might have to sort the roof shout for the builders. If this happens ill run tomorrow morning instead.
Lunch today us sushi food is all sorted already, except dinner.
Thursday, 17 October 2013
Which means not guilt and no beating one self up. I honestly believe that is how a little bit of a bad day turns into a bad week, month etc.
Wednesday, 16 October 2013
My goal for today is to ignore that number and focus on the changes I have made. I am exercising regularly and I am focused on my eating, its not 100% but honestly it should be able to be a bit hairy around the edges at times. I also need to focus on my treat for this week and decide what this is going to be.
I am looking forward to trying these pills and seeing if they help with move this weight and make my training for these runs easier.
C25km week 2 day 2 today !!
Monday, 14 October 2013
Yea I am aware it's a little odd to worry about these things but I do !
Sunday, 13 October 2013
Saturday, 12 October 2013
Friday, 11 October 2013
I managed my weight ok through 2012, it went up and down between 88-94 kgs. Things were ok and I was playing with it but not really trying as hard as was really needed or being as committed as I needed to be to shift it. I had burst at it and then weeks of just well plodding along. But in November 2012 I was 89 kgs and felt happy enough.
Then xmas came and went and my weight started to sky rocket and I was running and exercising. I felt unwell a lot and headed to the Dr, by this stage I had stabbing awful pains, my gallbladder was pretty cross and I had it removed urgently late february 2013. Since then I have had major issues with my weight. I have hit the 101.6 kg mark and freaked out and I have had the worst reflux of my life and been sent to a specialist. But in recent weeks it seems to have gone again and I have stopped taking my medication.
I now feel better about myself and again ready to kick this weight for once and for all while I train to run a half marathon on the 13th of April 2014. This is one of my personal goals I have not been able to achieve as yet.. this time.. its going to get done.
Today I weight 99.9 kgs, I wear a size 14 jean and a size 16 top. I am not comfortable this size.
My goal is to get to 75 - 80 kgs and be a size 12 top and bottom, I want to run a half marathon. I want to feel proud of myself and happy in my clothes.
So as of next week I start the coach to 5 km training ( already have completed week 1 day 1 & 2 this week) and I will continue running until I am a half marathon runner.
I have always achieved good weight loss when it is along side a an exercise goal. This goal is massive but it is on my bucket list. SO it will be done.
I have hunted down a training program and I will start that 12 weeks out ( so beginning of January) and between now and then I need to get to a 7-10km run distance.
Aswell as all of this I live with my inlaws while my house is being built and I am currently applying for jobs for next year.
Wish me luck.
I CAN DO THIS, I am capable of reaching my goals and dreams.
I am going to use myfitnesspal to track my calories (1500 a day) and map my run to track my runs. Aswell as wear my heart rate monitor while running.
Goal is to run 3 times a week and hopefully bike once a week with the Fiance.
As my training increases my goals will aswell.
This is the end goal: http://orewabeachhalfmarathon.com