Wednesday, 25 February 2015


I am now quiet focused on me.. my exercise is defiantly not where I want it.. but my eating is. If I can manage a week like I have just had and still lose weight I m a happy camper.

I will weigh in tomorrow morning. I had a good loss at ww.. but my blog weight is my thursday morning weigh in at home.

My run today was CRAP!! Really crap.. it hurt I had to push but I got it done. I even ran up some of the nasty bloody hill!!

10 weeks 3 days till the wedding.. to me thats 10 kgs if I can make it.. I can not wait to crack 105, and then out of the 100's for good..

Someone asked me how I will handle that being / getting pregnant and my weight. My answer is I will do my best. As I am aware I gain weight really quickly I know I will need to exercise and watch what I eat during this time. I also know.. right now.. no point even thinking about it.

I am in love with COLD water atm.. it has to be cold cold.. not freezing but that really nice fridge cold.

Tomorrow is walk and weight day and then weights. This is about me.. going to try on some of my clothes this weekend.. I have a pair of size 16 Doosh pants that I couldn't get over my fat thighs.. heres hoping..!!

Sunday, 22 February 2015

Trying to keep it balanced

Yesterday was my "hens" do. we had a high tea at the Stamford Plaza and it was lovely, but I ate to much and then we went to Wendy's for dinner, I had a taco salad but its still not to best thing to be eating. We have eaten our 2 nights this week as well due to having friends here from Dunedin as well. Again I managed that well, had salad and a dessert of sorbet the first night and just a salad the next, no booze either nights. I am proud of this and normally I would have just gone over board and just pigged out.

This weeks exercise has been a little lack laster, but I am back on track over the past two days, and I am starting to love it again. I love the fact I can push myself both with the running and the weight/resistance side of things. I am enjoying it so much, and yesterday I just felt soo much better when out running, and again today I was like this isnt bad how long can I go for and then pushed for the 10 mins.. I know some people will be like yeah yeah you have been here before and fallen flat on your face how many times.. well guess what, I am trying thats all I can do and I am trying my best. Its better than eating a chocolate bar to deal with it.

The wedding is now 10 weeks 6 days away I am aiming to lose about 10 kgs by then.. or as much as I can. I do know that doing the weights etc will help with toning. But for now my face has shrunk and that makes me happy and my tummy has as well.. My arms well.. spray tan will help with that and guess what.. I am doing my best..

When you think what has happened to me in the last 12 - 18 months I am doing ok.
I changed year levels, was horrendously sick with my stomach issues and because of them ended up pilling on weight, I have lost 2 grandparents, moved into my house and changed year levels at work.. I think I am doing ok, actually I know I am. Yes I am not where I would love to be, 80 kgs and I wont make that by the wedding but that is ok. My dress made me feel like a princess when I had it one at the dress fitting and that is all I can ask for. Honestly.. weight and size does not define me and I am sick of putting myself worth in it.. Instead I will do my best.. and try my hardest and some days it will be harder than others and some days my hardest wont be enough.. but that's all I can do.

We are going to Rarotonga in late September.. I want to wear togs on public.. thats huge for me.. so even once  we are married this journey to be healthy will continue.. we are also wanting to start a family in the next 12-ish months soo I need to be healthy for that too and well, if I can get myself healthier now I can stay that way while pregnant etc too.

Thursday, 19 February 2015

Two weeks two losses

Really happy. I managed two weeks og losses at weigh in. Now this may sound like a normal thing but for me right now my weight is stubborn and I am trying hard as I can to be positive.

I set a goal this week (thursday to wednesday) 3 x c25km session 2 x walk and weights

Why, because exercise is good for my mind and stress levels and it helps with weight loss.

I am very snowed under at work and the wedding and I have my hens do this Saturday and people here for the weekend. So right now.. I come first, what I want comes first!

So a dinner out and a high tea to negotiate this week. I can do it.. just need to look at my choices and drink lots of water.

I will post some photos on Saturday too. On my jeans and singlet

Sunday, 15 February 2015

Freaking out...

I get marred in 11 weeks and 6 days and I am working hard on eating well and exercising and have been for 2 - 3 weeks and I am not seeing the results I want to see, I am just hoping all my hard work pays off at some point.

I have been pretty good with my food maybe 1-2 over days in that hole time and that would have been countered by all my exercise for that week. So I should really be seeing more of a loss than the 400 grams I got last week.

I am trying not to let this get me down but it is scaring me, I used to find losing weight so easy before having my gallbladder removed, now i fight for every 100 grams and its a bit frustrating to say the least.

I am doing weights and a walk 2-3 times a week and 3 c25km session a week. I should see a change in my weight, well at least with that I know I will see a change in my shape. I am a bit sore after the mild weights a did today but I know this will improve. I have also up my incidental exercise at both work and home as I make myself do things and walk about.

I am hoping to report a loss at some point this week but after friday nights dinner and wine tasting I am still waiting for my weight to sort itself out! My ring is still tight so I am guessing i am retaining fluid... possibly...

Rant over!

Thursday, 12 February 2015

New month...

Hi all, 

Sorry for the wee absence. 

My Nan passed away on the 13th of January and well since then life has a been a bit up and down and I am struggling at times but I am getting there. I miss her immensely and its the small things, I cant chat to her about things and well just listen to her as she always made me feel better. 

Weight loss wise.. the scales are finally going down with me being able to be consistent and also I have been back at weight watchers for 2 meetings and I started the c25km challenge last week. I even ran last night between a meeting and school finishing so I didn't miss my run and could make it to the later weight watchers meeting as well.. 

I come first now. Me, my needs wants desires and dreams. 

We went to a wedding last friday and someone took a picture of my back and to my horror I had fat rolls.. I think that is currently what is giving me the passion to drive this forward as I do not want them in 12 weeks time to ruin or upset me on my wedding day. 

My weight loss to dates ( I went back to 110 odd kgs so since 28th ish of Jan) is about 2 kgs. I only lost 400 grams this week, I am thinking it could be the running or also the fact I skipped my sugar pills and started taking the next lot of normal pills on my contraceptive.. Who actually knows but I am just going to keep going.