Friday, 13 March 2015
I am also wearing a size 14 top today. I feel really good and its given me motivation to move forward again..
My wedding dress should arrive at my house today.. yes I am about to pop..
SOO excited !
I need to run 3 more times by Tuesday and I need to do a walk and weights session. I know this is good for me.. #getfit is what this is about not lose weight.. I need to keep reminding myself weight loss is a side effect from getting fit !!
Tuesday, 10 March 2015
Today is a throw them out the window day.
I have run 4 times this week and completed 1 x walk weight session, so far hoping to squeeze in another tonight but I have a late meeting that goes till 7, the gotta get home etc before its dark but I am sure I can do it. So you would think will all that exercise I would be up for an awesome loss.. NOT I have gained 400 grams.. pretty not happy over here.. pretty annoyed. With the extra weight I am carrying you would think burning an average of 600 cals plus per run I would be seeing a great loss. NOPE not anything nada nothing !
I am going to take my measurements tonight as I think they will help on days like today.
Positives: I feel a hell of a lot better most of the time within myself. I am shrinking the doosh pants prove that. I am getting fit and healthy.
I need to focus on the getting fit and back to running 5 kms three - four times a week instead of the losing weight side if this. Just it's sooo hard when all I want is those scales to move and give me some gratification especially with the wedding only 2 months away and all the hard work I am doing..
Just and FYI my food has been great I stick to my points and have eaten 5 of my exercise points back. So far I have earned 34 exercise points with the intention of earning more today. My week is Wed - Tues for food and exercise and weight watchers weigh in, but I weigh in for this blog on a friday.
I am wondering if I need to up my protien intake a wee bit.. might look at that for next week.
Tonight though I will measure myself.
Saturday, 7 March 2015
Wednesday, 25 February 2015
I will weigh in tomorrow morning. I had a good loss at ww.. but my blog weight is my thursday morning weigh in at home.
My run today was CRAP!! Really crap.. it hurt I had to push but I got it done. I even ran up some of the nasty bloody hill!!
10 weeks 3 days till the wedding.. to me thats 10 kgs if I can make it.. I can not wait to crack 105, and then out of the 100's for good..
Someone asked me how I will handle that being / getting pregnant and my weight. My answer is I will do my best. As I am aware I gain weight really quickly I know I will need to exercise and watch what I eat during this time. I also know.. right now.. no point even thinking about it.
I am in love with COLD water atm.. it has to be cold cold.. not freezing but that really nice fridge cold.
Tomorrow is walk and weight day and then weights. This is about me.. going to try on some of my clothes this weekend.. I have a pair of size 16 Doosh pants that I couldn't get over my fat thighs.. heres hoping..!!
Sunday, 22 February 2015
Yesterday was my "hens" do. we had a high tea at the Stamford Plaza and it was lovely, but I ate to much and then we went to Wendy's for dinner, I had a taco salad but its still not to best thing to be eating. We have eaten our 2 nights this week as well due to having friends here from Dunedin as well. Again I managed that well, had salad and a dessert of sorbet the first night and just a salad the next, no booze either nights. I am proud of this and normally I would have just gone over board and just pigged out.
This weeks exercise has been a little lack laster, but I am back on track over the past two days, and I am starting to love it again. I love the fact I can push myself both with the running and the weight/resistance side of things. I am enjoying it so much, and yesterday I just felt soo much better when out running, and again today I was like this isnt bad how long can I go for and then pushed for the 10 mins.. I know some people will be like yeah yeah you have been here before and fallen flat on your face how many times.. well guess what, I am trying thats all I can do and I am trying my best. Its better than eating a chocolate bar to deal with it.
The wedding is now 10 weeks 6 days away I am aiming to lose about 10 kgs by then.. or as much as I can. I do know that doing the weights etc will help with toning. But for now my face has shrunk and that makes me happy and my tummy has as well.. My arms well.. spray tan will help with that and guess what.. I am doing my best..
When you think what has happened to me in the last 12 - 18 months I am doing ok.
I changed year levels, was horrendously sick with my stomach issues and because of them ended up pilling on weight, I have lost 2 grandparents, moved into my house and changed year levels at work.. I think I am doing ok, actually I know I am. Yes I am not where I would love to be, 80 kgs and I wont make that by the wedding but that is ok. My dress made me feel like a princess when I had it one at the dress fitting and that is all I can ask for. Honestly.. weight and size does not define me and I am sick of putting myself worth in it.. Instead I will do my best.. and try my hardest and some days it will be harder than others and some days my hardest wont be enough.. but that's all I can do.
We are going to Rarotonga in late September.. I want to wear togs on public.. thats huge for me.. so even once we are married this journey to be healthy will continue.. we are also wanting to start a family in the next 12-ish months soo I need to be healthy for that too and well, if I can get myself healthier now I can stay that way while pregnant etc too.
Saturday, 21 February 2015
Thursday, 19 February 2015
Really happy. I managed two weeks og losses at weigh in. Now this may sound like a normal thing but for me right now my weight is stubborn and I am trying hard as I can to be positive.
I set a goal this week (thursday to wednesday) 3 x c25km session 2 x walk and weights
Why, because exercise is good for my mind and stress levels and it helps with weight loss.
I am very snowed under at work and the wedding and I have my hens do this Saturday and people here for the weekend. So right now.. I come first, what I want comes first!
So a dinner out and a high tea to negotiate this week. I can do it.. just need to look at my choices and drink lots of water.
I will post some photos on Saturday too. On my jeans and singlet
Sunday, 15 February 2015
I have been pretty good with my food maybe 1-2 over days in that hole time and that would have been countered by all my exercise for that week. So I should really be seeing more of a loss than the 400 grams I got last week.
I am trying not to let this get me down but it is scaring me, I used to find losing weight so easy before having my gallbladder removed, now i fight for every 100 grams and its a bit frustrating to say the least.
I am doing weights and a walk 2-3 times a week and 3 c25km session a week. I should see a change in my weight, well at least with that I know I will see a change in my shape. I am a bit sore after the mild weights a did today but I know this will improve. I have also up my incidental exercise at both work and home as I make myself do things and walk about.
I am hoping to report a loss at some point this week but after friday nights dinner and wine tasting I am still waiting for my weight to sort itself out! My ring is still tight so I am guessing i am retaining fluid... possibly...
Thursday, 12 February 2015
Sorry for the wee absence.
My Nan passed away on the 13th of January and well since then life has a been a bit up and down and I am struggling at times but I am getting there. I miss her immensely and its the small things, I cant chat to her about things and well just listen to her as she always made me feel better.
Weight loss wise.. the scales are finally going down with me being able to be consistent and also I have been back at weight watchers for 2 meetings and I started the c25km challenge last week. I even ran last night between a meeting and school finishing so I didn't miss my run and could make it to the later weight watchers meeting as well..
I come first now. Me, my needs wants desires and dreams.
We went to a wedding last friday and someone took a picture of my back and to my horror I had fat rolls.. I think that is currently what is giving me the passion to drive this forward as I do not want them in 12 weeks time to ruin or upset me on my wedding day.
My weight loss to dates ( I went back to 110 odd kgs so since 28th ish of Jan) is about 2 kgs. I only lost 400 grams this week, I am thinking it could be the running or also the fact I skipped my sugar pills and started taking the next lot of normal pills on my contraceptive.. Who actually knows but I am just going to keep going.
Friday, 9 January 2015
I went to weight watchers and weighed in I have gained 900 grams since the last time I went which I was happy with.
I am motivated! So far this week ( my weeks go Wednesday to Tuesday to match weigh in's) I have been for a 6 km walk and dug and lugged dirt around my garden for 2 hours solid, so I have earned 20 exercise points already which I am proud of as its only day three of my week.
Its nearly TTOM so the scales are all over the show but will settle next week I know they will show my hard work, and if they don't, I DON'T CARE I feel a lot better and I am mentally a lot healthier for the good food and the exercise and water.
Next week I will possibly head to dunedin, Nan does not have long they have said days to weeks, so things will go down hill and I will head down there to be support for my Grandad at that time. I WILL pack my exercise gear and walk for 60 mins each day to keep that mental balance for myself.
I also need to go into work and start working on my class and groups and things for this coming year I also need to do some planning and place things up on the walls etc. I cant lay out my classroom until after the cleaners come and that is annoying too. Wayne has said he will come and help me if I need him to at the weekends as I might end up in Dunedin right up until I need to be back at work etc.
Its hard but I am doing a lot better than I thought I would knowing what is happening and that I will basically lose my Mum in the coming weeks.
I need to go grocery shopping again today, run out of veg and fruit and Wayne has suggested I get my nails done next week after weigh in if I lose weight as a positive reinforcement, I may just do that.
PS: 4 months today until the wedding hehehe EEEEK can't wait!
Monday, 5 January 2015
Ohh ouch my muscles hurt so I have walked 4kms today instead of the 7.75kms I have done the past two days. I am feeling better in myself and my control eith sugar cravings is getting better. I am trying really hard to not eat shit to and be balanced in my food choices but nit restrictive as I know this causes me to binge so trying hard. Water intake is good so far must keep it up.
I have been weighing myself when I get up so the time varies which is giving me funny weights but the general consenses is it going down so thats positive. I do know I will go up when I weigh in at weight watchers on Wednesday but that's ok as I go for the support and motivator instead of that bit.
Last night I cooked a Mexican bean and mince dish it was really unusual and an awesome change!
Today we are applying fir passports so we can book our honeymoon in rarotonga ohh yes! I will never wear a bikini but buying a nice swimsuit and feeling somewhat comfortable in it is good motivation to keep me on track. I also have split the jobs for the wedding up and will make Wayne do some of it as I have done so much of it already! Trying to reduce my stress levels aswell.
Things are good, emotional eating is getting better.
Sunday, 4 January 2015
On the 2nd of January we had 2 people pass away, one my friend from school and my other halfs great uncle both from cancer and both diagnosed as terminal. Life at times is just so unfair but it goes on and as time goes by we adjust and get used to the absence, never forgotten just absent from the goings on.
Today I called my Nan and she was freezing and not feeling very well as she has been having chest pains. Sadly there is nothing I can do for her but it still isn't very nice for her at all.
I choose not to eat my feelings and I am trying to come to terms with the fact she may bot be here much longer.
I have walked today which I believe helps me with keeping things balanced mentally. Food is on track and I am on my 2 nd bottle of water. I do have control over this and my choices soo I will improve my situation.
Saturday, 3 January 2015
*Put myself first others problems come second
*Realise I can not fix everything
*Exercise its good for my mind body and stress levels
*Stop blaming things and people
*Treat myself better