10 kms - lots of thinking!

Today was the day I had entered to run 10 kms. 

I did it... thought I better say that first. 
It was hard, the course is very hilly and goes up and down and up up up and then down a bit. The first 5 kms and I wasn't all that happy my legs hurt, I kept telling myself get to the next hill and you can stretch and I just keep running, get to the next road and then you can stretch your legs, kept running. I ran the whole way, I ran and ran, I just kept going, not once did I stop not once did I walk. 

I planned to just run the race, get it done there were no miracles wanted here, I just wanted to finish it and run the whole way. 

I learnt something HUGE about myself. I CAN do anything I want to, I CAN run 10 kms, I CAN be successful and I am worthy of being the best person I can be. 
My own brain has a lot of to answer for, actually I do. I am the one who is so negative and horrible to myself about things. I am the reason I feel I can not achieve things. I NEED to be nicer to myself and a lot more positive about the things I want to achieve, weight loss and fitness wise.  

I finished, I also finished completing another Personal Best, YUP I bloody gave it my all it nearly had me in tears when my legs were burning and I finished in the best time ever. I was stoked!! 

My sister in law came to watch myself and two of her friends run. I crossed the finish line, I cried so did she. I year ago I was extremely sick and recovering from surgery. I then spent months trying to get myself back to normal and make myself better I gained a hole lot of weight and lost all my fitness. I then spent month dealing with reflux. So together we cried, she is proud of me but also knows the challenge I had to get back to this fitness level. 

I am again dealing with reflux and stomach burning I know whats triggered it.. stress... and I think its all connected to our bloody house. Doesn't make life easy when you are dealing with a bunk of a**holes. But ohh well. 
Tomorrow I will call them I want to have a meeting with them tomorrow night about the paint inside and out, and the time frames for getting it fixed. Also I need the front door on so the house is secure and the speakers etc we have supplied don't get stolen as they are not covered under insurance! 

I am taking things for the reflux, but its still bloody pestering me like anything I will have to delete somethings back out of my diet as they make it worse. :( grr... three weeks and this nightmare of a house build should be over. Honestly its ment to be a happy time, its far from it. 

School on the other hand is BLOODY busy but I am loving it. Lots of extra work to do but thats ok Ill get my head around it as time goes one. 

Weigh in day tomorrow.. will see you there.